I think you already know the answer to your question, you just need some reassurance that you are doing the right thing. Unfortunately, I cannot tell you what to do. What I can tell you, is that there are people who will love and support you. I can also tell you that things will get better. It may not be today or tomorrow, next week or even next month, but they do get better. Don't forget, take some time for yourself. I know you have a lot on your plate; bills, family etc. But even ten minutes a day for yourself just makes your stress just a tiny bit more manageable and if you don't take care of yourself, no one else will. Good Luck!