i know what you mean about being upset about being upset-- it's part of the acceptance- even if i'm doing better, a part of me thinks that maybe it'll work, maybe he'll want to be with me again, maybe he won't want the divorce-- so when i get upset again, i think it's another layer of acceptance-- he really isn't coming back, i really am alone. but i need to accept before i can change. it sounds like you are making really positive changes that you can and will enjoy. what kind of puppy? i bet its cute.