I am feeling like this to my AH lastest episode involved me calling an ambulence at 7.30 am this morning as he thought he was having a heart attack.......yeah vodka and coke binge? I currrently dont know what has happened to him, I went to the hospital and all I kept thinking here we are again, the last time was xmas and although he has made alot pf progress its claerly not enough....hes still trying to do it his way! anyway the docs where doign there test and he ask me to stay to see if it was serious then I said to him I have to go, and I just walked out, I have to go to work, this cant affect me, my job, so I left and I felt at peice about it and not bad, a little worried obviously about hi but I cant do anything?? what is the point of me standing there again .......I think he was a tlittle shocked but I felt I had to do it, Im not giving this any form of attention, ill give him attention when he works on his recovery but not when hes harming himself!!