I just had a reality moment of my pathetic marriage.
I was cruising myspace and found this guy I grew up withs page, we were just friends and go back to like 9.
Anyway he still hangs with lots of the same people and such and I realized a few things, Ive lived in the same town all my life but no longer have friends here. lost them all bout the time I met AH.
I emailed the guy we need to catch up and after I hit send I realized how insanely jealous AH is. And how crazy that is... He can never see my page, read my emails ect. We are separated yet we are not and part of me still feels imprisoned.
Reality is as long as we have any contact I can never just be me, without being in fear