sorry cinder, maybe if you can stop and take a breather, you'll feel better. soon everything will probably fall in place, maybe you are still getting adjusted to him not being there. once you get caught up on everything and have a system go on, you'll probably began to settle down a bit more. i know the anger, there are days that it just don't seem fair, but know that as long as you continue to put one foot in front of the other, that everything will probably just fall in line.