James,
Just keep posting, reach out
Just know that you are not alone.
Yeap, being a provider and to take care of my family.
It's a bit confusing at first becuase it's going against the grain
of everything I was taught or feel.
Settle down and have a family...that wasn't too much to ask for.
That's what you're suppost to do..I thought.
Maybe if you start your recovery, she might take notice...she might not.
But at least you're making a change in the current situation.
At the very least you will be geting well.
LoL....I thought I was old when I truned 30.
I have a freind that's only 26 and thinks he's too old.
I started dating again at 38....that'll have to be another thread.lol
All i know is...as much as i love my gf, I love myself a thousand times more.