Hi Mama,
Sounds like you're on the right path and in the right place for this journey to begin. It's not easy, but that's what makes it that much more worthwhile. I look forward to getting to know you.
I'm also a mom who has had more embarrassing and humiliating drunken moments than I care to think about. Ugh. Makes my toes curl in shame. You are not alone and won't ever be alone here.
((((Hugs))))