good morning...
I'm guessing your doubts were either confirmed or not by now
in either case, you need to start thinking about yourself and what you can or cannot do...
my RAS is still "away" but I know that his recovery could still cause anxiety in me...
wondering and anticipating etc...
I know I will need to address those issues (altho he will never live with me again, I fear I will always be waiting for the other shoe to drop!)
I hope things worked out better than you feared
take care of you...
someone in alanon told me to formulate and visualize a plan B...
then pray that you never use it but know that you have a plan if needed....
for me, that helps the "what will I do if...." moments