stay strong--stop crying-I am so sorry for your pain. It seems like you keep thinking he is going to get straight-then he doesn't he lets you down.You have to make a choice--no one should have to live the melodramatic lifestyle you are in....Stop calling him--he knows exactly what he is doing OR you never know you might be wrong???It is always such a game such a puzzle--you need to detach from this and not worry about him--he will do what he wants==good or bad,,,,,