Thanks Everyone for you replies,
My choice was not good I know, this is no excuse but my head is going in so many directions, I have so many worries that seem so unsolvable and I think I really am in need of some professional help once again. I so wish I had someone that I could just lean on for once instead of having to deal with it all.
I have no such intention of having my husband back, my comment I made regarding telling him that I would think about if he were to put the house in my name was very malishish of me, I just thought one last thing that I would have to depend on that lawyer to do for me. Again not a great comment to make.
I truly think that he was and still is manilpulating, trying to promise hope and happiness that is going to go as far as the next hit of crack.
Rose