I agree with everyone here. You need to make some hard decisions. You do not deserve to live this way. I have walked in your shoes. Its never easy. This web site really helped me and gave me the strength to do what I needed to regain my life and sanity for me and my kids. Go for some free legal consultations. Find out where you stand and what your rights are. My soon to be ex ah has been out of the house for a few months. When I see him it breaks my heart. I just feel like crying sometimes. But I do sleep alittle better at night eventhough I worry about him all the time. Its really out of our control.
I wish you the best