bfree,
You did make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. As you said, lesson reconfirmed. A hiccup of this kind can either make you or break you. I think I know what it's going to do for you. Hang with the winners, it will get easier. By the way, are you doing this yourself or are you getting outside support? If alone, I encourage you to consider some help from a DR. or some kind of local support group. Face-to-face contact is very important.
We are with you, just do what you know in your heart is the next right thing. Your mind may deceive you but your heart never will.
Your friend in sobriety,
Ed