I still get images somtimes, of violents episode in my life.
Usually when i'm in a very stressful situations, or i'm emotionally unstable.
it's wierd to just be driving to work, and I get flashes of images
of trauma in my life. They trigger a lot of emotions. i don't
shovle them aside anymore, I just process them and experince
them, as duet4-8 stated. i also belive it is how i'm able to
grow emotionally. My emotions had been dwarf do to abused
or violents or drugs and alcohol abused.
i belive this how I became less too sentitive to everything.
Sometimes events occure in my life to trigger old pain that i didn't
process, i numb myself to survive, but they are still inside of me
and they arrise. it's also an opportunity in a crisis.
I'm ready to let go of old pain
I belive this is the 6th and 7th step
Becuase these events also happens usually right after the 5th.
And most old timmers just say...you'll know when you get well.lol
I know in my heart that I've forgiven, so i'm not taking it personally
anymore. it's just me getting emotionally mature.