Raven,
I am sorry you went through so much and glad you survived to tell us about it. We do what we have to do to survive and then we find a better way. It sounds like you found a better way and the journey continues. It's tough coping with PTSD. It's not something that just goes away. It does get better in time though. It's hard enough trying to cope without having our needs met as children. Add abuse and trauma to that and it's a hard, hard road.
I'm glad you're here.
Hugs,
MG