Hi Dee,
Welcome to SR!
You've found a great place to come for support and inspiration.
You are not alone in being afraid of stopping drinking and how it will affect your life. I was very scared of what my life would be like, what would be left. But, it is so worth it to be able to live a sober life. Sobriety often involves changes in lifestyle and making some hard choices. But, you can do it.
Keep reading and posting.