Hey Dee,
I hope this site helps you, too. The best thing you can do is stop drinking. I figure from your post you must be about 36. That's how old I was when I quit. Once I did my life really began.
This may sound harsh, but forget about your hard-drinking buddies. They'll just drag you down. Misery loves company. Once I stopped drinking I never heard from any of my drinking buddies again... ever. These were my boys and I thought we were close. Of course maybe I had been such a pain in the neck that they were glad to get rid of me... Whatever...
The point is that sobriety has changed my life. At age 47 (sober since 1996) I am now becoming the man I was meant to be. I've got two kids, a wife, a great job, and prospects for the future. Good prospects. I'm respected in my community and at my job. This is a far cry from the man(child) who was "falling about" all around town - and this with no physical disability to blame it on.
Good luck, Dee and I hope to hear more from you.
Mike in Boston, MA