Hello and welcome to SR!!!!
It's absolutely normal to feel the anger, the betrayal...ohhh, we go through all those emotions, then flutuate back through them again.
The addict in my life is my 29 year old daughter, so I'm coming at it from a somewhat different angle, yet still the same emotions. Death of dreams, anxiety, fear....they're all there whether we are parents or spouses of the addict.
You need to read the sticky's at the top of the page, very helpful....and especially remember the 3C's
You didn't Cause it
You can't Control it and
YOU can't Cure it
I'm sooo sorry you have to find yourself here, but so glad you've found us
