I had a down day yesterday; or part of the day anyway. My 17 yr old sober daughter went shopping and had a great time; but I was remembering when my 20 yr old RAD would go with us also. We usually had a good time together - just the three of us shopping and eating lunch together. I miss that a lot. Not that my 17 yr is not fun (she's a hoot!), but I miss what we used to have together.
I allowed my pity party to take a hold of me for a few hours, then I let it go.
I think we all have those bad sad days of remembering better times with our addicts and we miss that. Like you said, it is part of our life.
HUGS to you and wishing a better day ahead.
Terri