Today is rainy here. Even though I know it is necessary for the beautiful colors of summer, rain still makes me feel a little gloomy. Calling for snow by Wednesday. Just in time for Easter. But that is spring in NE Michigan
Anyway, I think what you are feeling is grief and it takes time to get through it. Can't shortcut it. But I think there is a purpose to grief. It makes the good times ahead even sweeter. Big Hugs, Marle