A thousand thank yous could never even BEGIN to thank everyone for their support and kind words of strength on this post...
I must ask though... Is it possible that I do not believe I DESERVE to focus on me/take back the power of my life?
It feels so difficult if not impossible... like there is no foundation of self worth to base make "focusing on me" possible...
I think that I may believe that I am not worthy of this. I think I have a deep seated fear that I am nothing without someone loving me- or that I need someone else's love to feel good about myself. I'm cognizant of the fact that it is not rational but it feels so real...