Thank you all so much for your kind replies.
I def. must take this ONE DAY AT A TIME.
I am trying to focus on all the horrible things that he has done/is doing.
But instead I keep spotlighting positive times/good times.
This morning was so insanely difficult as I just wanted to pick up the phone and call him. I know this will do nothing but prove to him that I cannot stick to what I have said about what is acceptable/unacceptable behavior.
I feel like I keep getting weaker. Don't want to give in.