Jen, Yup I go through periods where I just read and read. Sometimes I will start to type a reply and I don't send it because it just doesn't sound right to me. Other times I feel like I have something to contribute. So don't worry about replying, sometimes you just need to read. As for your hubby, it sounds like he really hates himself and wants to make everyone else miserable as well. Good that you see that he is being destructive and are able to separate yourself from his chaos. Take care of you. Hugs, Marle