Ayla,
As I read your post, tears started to blur my vision.
Thank you for sharing your story. I have been where you were, and I didn't weather the storm as well as you..
You are so right about the cards, people saying things such as, "He, She, is in a better place." When someone is in the grief process, the last thing they want to hear is a better place...
I have learned Ayla, that most of these people mean well. They are uncomfortable as to how to comfort you.
It sounds like you have experienced the five stages of grief, and as difficult as it was you have become a stronger person.
Thanks for sharing......