Hiya Minnie,
I seriously doubt that you are half as bad a person as you seem to think, and I'm sure others are not nearly as down on you as you believe they are. 69 days is da bomb! There's a lot of people here, including myself, who have yet to string that many days together. I have a really hard time believing I'm a good person, even when other people tell me I am. I think we both need to be kinder to ourselves!
DK