Hey Mini... you post so much pain from someone so young
. I hope you can see some way to get through that and realise that you don't have to feel like this, live like this. I think posting here is one way to get there if you can't do AA. Not everyone here goes to AA (shhh... I don't
) and there are other programs as hope and Carol pointed out. I looked in to Women for Sobriety and thought it would be something good for me... but there are no meetings near me at all. They do have a message board on MSN though. That's just as well... I'm plugging along w/o WFS or AA and it's OK. See, some people can do it without AA.
I really feel that you need love and support... not lectures so that's all from me. For now
.