Hia mini, you don't have to be sorry to us, your only going through what we've all experienced. The frustration of wanting to stop but the seemless imposability to do it. But mini if at the moment that hill seems just to high to climb, just look at it for a while eventualy you will see the route to the top that suits you.
Mini dont ever feel that you dont bring anything to SR, You bring yourself and your honesty, something that is vital to all that are seeking recovery.
Keep yourself safe, keep looking for recovery and the love you desire will follow. Please take care mini and post back soon!.
chris.