((((Minnie)))))
Sending out hugs to you. I'm sorry you are having such a rough time. Please don't lose hope.
If you even have a little desire to get sober, that is enough to develop. Keep nurturing that desire to quit. Have you spoken to your doctor about this? Your doctor will probably have some suggestions for you that will help you get sober.
I hope you hang in there, and stick it out with us. We are here for you in this time of need. You can get through this.
I will pray for you tonight.
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