I realise you were in a situation providing opportunity and expectation but I'm curious as to why you gave in? Why did you take the first drink? I'm not trying to be a pita... I'm really concerned for you, myself and anyone else that reads the forum. Hopefully thinking about it will bring some insight so it doesn't happen again (thinking, not dwelling). There's been quite a few relapse threads lately. You had such a great outlook just the other day with that thread about positive things since sobriety (or something to that effect... can't remember the exact title). What changed?