I hope your desire to quit drinking runs deeper than simply not wanting to lose shelter and your fiance. It's a much harder go if we are not quitting for ourselves. Not drinking changes your whole life and your very being. When I was drinking, my whole life revolved around alcohol. Booze was the condiment for every event and emotion. Suddenly I'm left with a whole lot more time and space in my life....and head full of sharp edged thoughts that still likes to beat the hell out of me sometimes. Sobriety takes work.
TorontoGuy...yesterday is over. It's up to you what you're gonna do with today. And yep, my damn ego was the root of so much evil in my life. The realization that it was what led me to the emotional wreckage that was my life made me realize I could no longer listen to my damn ego...as it loved the path to hell and drama.