Originally Posted by
TorontoGuy28 
I messed up. Got home last night at around 2 am smashed. Fiance pissed.
Hosted clients at a basketball game. Open bar. Should have known better than putting myself in that position...
Unreal as to how quickly one can go back into hell.
Day 1 starts today.
Toronto,
"Should have known better than putting myself in that position...
Unreal as to how quickly one can go back into hell."
Alcoholism is cunning, baffling, and powerful. "Just when you thought it was safe to go back in the water" kind of thing.
I don't know whether you attend AA or not. If not and don't want to, find another program or support group that will guide you down the road to recovery. One way or another, the causes and conditions of your malady need to be exposed. You know that drinking is just a symptom of a much deeper problem. Just as a stomach ache is to a virus.
So glad you're back. I hope you find a way that leads to joy and freedom.
Ed