I know there are no gurantees in life...No gurantees that
I can stay sober for the rest of my life alone....with out
help and support of my recovery program.
My family intervened on me because they were afraid of
what i tried to do to myself. Of course being under the infuence
I had no idea the damage of what alcohol was doing to me...
It was slowly killing me....
My family didnt have the answers either at the time on how
to help me...all they did was reached for the phone....and
the rest...well ...was up to the court, system, and me.....
After going thru the 28 day rehab....i was still unstable....all
I did there was go thru the motions and clear the fog from
my head....I did manage to pick up the tools and understanding
of my disease to stay with be all these yrs.
When i was let go from rehab, no one thought that I would
stay sober.......so when they wanted to send me away to
a halfway house away from my kids, i promised to do whatever
it took to go and attend the 6 week aftercare program.....
I for myself needed to do this....and i did whatever it took to stay
sober one day at a time....and to keep my family.
Im not gonna tell u it was easy, because it wasnt at the beginning...
I may have been going thru the motions for many yrs, attending
meeting, service work and absorbing the programing.
I am still sober 16 yrs later, but in all honesty...im only
sober for today....16 yrs is just a number of many one days
at a time collected together to get me where I am today...
Tomorrow isnt here yet, so theres no guarantees what will happen
then....all i have to worry about is today...to work my program to
the best of my ability giving away the experiences, strengths
and hopes to the next person in recovery...To remain teachable
as i am and continue turning my will and life over to the care
of a Power Greater than I to guide me and strengthen me with
wisdom and love.