With issues of trust and betrayal, anger is bound to come up. I don't blame you for feeling as you do. I suggest you write about your anger and fear.
Let it all out as you write. When you are finished, turn it all over to your HP.
Leave all the inner turmoil in HPs hands.
Do something special for you today. Something that makes you feel happy and cherished. You can meet tomorrow's challenges with courage, strength and dignity. We care and support you.
Hugs