i agree that it doesn't matter the drug, its the behavior thats the same. yes, i have acted out of character, and i feel that i was wrong. i believe that its the effects of the desease for one and then its me not handling that type stress in a healthy way.
i think that its not something to keep beating yourself over the head about, even though its not something that is to be taken lightly. maybe its time to take a closer look at your reactions to his addictive behavior and decided if somehow this is something that you can commit to working on so that the violence won't have to get worse. sorry that you have to go through this.