minnie... its a lot about being teachable... in fact, its about remaining teachable...
when we/i think its licked, or compleatly understood... the big ut-oh... look out...
you say your so into yourself.. what a head start.. it takes some years just to see that...
as mentioned, learn to love yourself... of course you are worth it...
long winded posts... ppfftt, at least your reaching out... crying for help... not internalizing it... get it all out hun...
the more that comes out, the sooner one gets to know ones inner self...
then we can work on what needs to change...
that friend of your sounds like a civalian... doesnt have the twisted thinking like us...
clear and level headed... ouch! lol
you will be ok minnie... believe...
all good wishes, xxoo, rz