Getting soberer
I am going on a hundred days and i have noticed how much my anxiety level has decreased. Still have ups and downs but am not looking for the glass of wine at the end of the day or rewarding myself at the end of the week. One of my biggest fears when I started was the weekends and what I was going to do because everyone drank and I certainly did. I now love the weekends...they stretch out like a great dessert. I am busy around my house; my wife and I plan things together; I laugh with my kids. I sleep so much better now; no more waking up at 4:00 in the morning and laying there, dreading getting up to feel like s***. Food tastes great and i really enjoy it instead of forcing it down or skipping altogether.
One thing I have learned and keep telling myself...maybe I'll drink again; I hope not and don't think I will but I do know, today I will not. Not much comes of thinking too far out.