missy, your first post says you purchased beer. Did you drink it? If you didn't, then you still have time to make the best choice for your health and sanity. Get rid of the beer. Forget about the cost and just pitch all of it in a dumpster.
It really sounds like you could benefit greatly from some face to face support. There is only so much we can do with just our typed words. Please keep reaching out. You can do this.