Dear Nancy,
This is a horrible story!
I also saw "Unfaithful" and quite liked it, although I preferred "Nine and a half week". It reminded me of my story with one of my fiancés. But what you told is very serious and bound to leave you traumatized. You will probably benefit from counseling with a specialist in Post Traumatic Stress Syndrom. In France, many people have benefited from hypnosis.
When I was fifteen I went all over Europe hitch-hiking. I got stabbed in Athenes and when I took the train back from Athenes through Yougoslavia it was horrible. Men tried to rape me many times, but I fought back. I had a knife on me for protection. I also got into heaps of trouble in East Berlin. Arrest, police brutality, jail cells and people as crazy as I was. These memories stayed with me very vividly, but when I straightened out, the memories no longer bothered me. They seem to belong the the troubled youth I was and sometimes I don´t feel I´m the same person.
Sometimes when I see action movies, like "Crouching Tiger" by Ang Lee, I see myself fighting these men back, but it´s a good feeling now. Maybe some of these movies help us to heal. I like to think so and I certainly hope it works for you too, Nancy. Seeing the film was a big step and here is big a cyberhug from me.
I hope sharing my warstory helped you a little bit. Remember that you´re a survivor.