Hi merlot & snowboard,
As problem drinkers we've all had those moments of shame when we've woken up to the Four horsemen, Terror-Bewilderment-Frustration-Despair.
We shouldn't dwell in the guilt of the past but should look to the present were by not taking that first drink we can be sure that we wont go back to those dark days.We must stay focussed on the present taking on lifes challenges one day at a time.Then as we progress into recovery and our sobriety grows only then will we be able to make ammends to those we wronged during our lost days.
I wish you both well in your recovery.
Stay strong and true to yourselves !
chris.