Hello & welcome to SR missminime,
congrats on 55 days,thats the same as me this recovery and yes as you say its tough but worth every second.The things that are spinning in your head should be shared here on SR as venting your emotions will help you and anybody feeling the same.None of us need to keep it all inside because eventualy we will weaken and go back to the old life.
For myself since finding SR I have found great comfort & support & good friends with similar issues to myself,a usefull tool in a programme of recovery.
Its good to have you on board !
chris