he has never aknowleged my problem he brought home aa books like 3 yrs ago but i got "better" then we were even questioned by people in our religion and he stuck up for me. i quit for over 30 days and then only drank on the weekends not even binge just a few he thought he was loving me by protecting me from the truth and now that i want to fix it hes done. i am not strong without him i can not raise my kids by myself, spritualy, emotionally or finacially, he always helped, i have no concept of being able to do this alone.i know so many people have been through things ive bee reading the forum for 2 days ALOT but i have no strenth no goodness