Ok
It seems so simple doesn't it. I did have one friend that stopped and when I stopped last week I asked how he did it. He said "decide to stop". Last night, after I told him I had been sober a week he advised me to lose my drinking frends and get new ones. Do you all agree?
I will concentrate on myself getting sober for now but last night when he was drunk and angry and left me on my own, I drank. Even though I hated it! Yes - and all the head nightmare stuff, suicide thoughts etc.
I LOVE being sober. I had the best week of my adult life last week!!!
With that in mind, last night made me depressed. I know what I want. I want it so badly. Badly enough to lose my friends and love?