Pink Clouds - Purple Rainbows
My therapst last night told me about living in the pink cloud stage. Meaning AH is sober, my anxiety has lifted some.Things are looking up etc. She asked us what is going to happen if AH would become active drinking again. In complete shock I spouted out "There is no way Im ever going back to that life. If you (looking at AH) start drinking we are done" I felt no remorse, guilt, could have cared less what he thought.I didnt even feel scared saying it. I couldnt belive it. This is leaps and bounds on my part. I even took myself serious. I know we are still early in the recovery stage, and only God knows what the outcome will be. But it made me feel empowered, which I didnt know if I still had that in me. And I meant every single word of it. Its funny how you always hear you will know when the time is right to make statements or decisions like that. Now I understand. No way will I ever go back to that life. It wasnt a life it was train wreck!