Originally Posted by
AnonyAddict 
Well, I said I wouldn't do it again and what did I do? Well, "it" again. I am a full blown Heroin addict again. Exactly seven days after I quit and about two days of feeling normal again, I ended up buying a bundle. (ten stamps)
I can't seem to control myself, whenever I have extra cash, I can't help but buy dope. I have actually forgotten what it's like to live sober, it just feels like I can't have fun, complete a task or be "me" without it.
Keep in mind, I snort it and don't inject it. That first line in the AM is better than coffee, the second, third, and fourth lines are great too. I went through hell the first time quit, and I can't believe I'm about to it again.
If only "just saying no" were that easy...
i know
Can't tell you how many times i went back to alcohol in my drinking days, years ago now.
And if you're thinking, "meh, alcohol is nothing to come off compared with H," think again.
I had it
*very bad*.
And i would quit many, many times as well. Everytime would be a hellish sobering-up period. Would take me weeks to get my strength back, weeks to stop the shaking. And then what in hell would i do? Just soon as things got ok for me again ,i'd go right the f- out and...
do 'er all over again.
Addiction is hell - my best wishes are with you.
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