Its the dope... again.
Well, I said I wouldn't do it again and what did I do? Well, "it" again. I am a full blown Heroin addict again. Exactly seven days after I quit and about two days of feeling normal again, I ended up buying a bundle. (ten stamps)
I can't seem to control myself, whenever I have extra cash, I can't help but buy dope. I have actually forgotten what it's like to live sober, it just feels like I can't have fun, complete a task or be "me" without it.
Keep in mind, I snort it and don't inject it. That first line in the AM is better than coffee, the second, third, and fourth lines are great too. I went through hell the first time quit, and I can't believe I'm about to it again.
If only "just saying no" were that easy...