so...i just talked to every freakin addiction specialist in charlotte...none of them will see me and referred me to an inpatient treatment facility. i spoke with a woman who told me that quiting alcohol cold turkey is more dangerous that trying to quit anything else.
She asked me a series of questions and said that based on my answers (mostly the quantity of what I drink, the length of time that I have been drinking, and the fact that I have never tried to stop) they want me inpatient. I am really scared right now. If nothing else I will be in there for a few days for detox.
I feel like the whole world around me is crumbling and I am trying to find the courage to go talk to my manager.
Just thought I would let everyone know in case you don't see me for a while.