Wow, thank you ALL for your replies. I'm actually feeling hopeful this morning for the first time in awhile. Made a list of all the stuff I need to pick up (vitamins, some healthy food, etc) and having not drank for...10 hours, I've already drank three tall glasses of water.
Definitely looking into meetings...haven't found one that I can get to yet but I will keep looking.
Now off to keep reading threads here!