Hey I'm here! Does that count?? hehe! Thanks Ayla. I hadn't really thought of my little booth as a business till the other day when I was paying my rent in the office there at the flea mkt. The manager told me that as soon as she knew that the better space was coming available she thought of me. She said that everyone was talking about it and saying they couldn't wait to see what I done with it since I had made the little 10 by 12 space look so good. It is a small business and I am beginning to feel proud of myself some..just scared. But, I'll never know if I don't give it a shot will I? I am looking at it as another step toward regaining my independence. I used to be so damned independent...pre drug addict! I hate how that stripped so many things away from my life before I even realized it. but, that's yesterday. I'm surprised that my decreasing is going as well. it scares me to even say it...like i'm jinxing myself. I can't tell much difference yet..just starting to have more aches and pains, but nothing I can't handle yet. and it might sound strange, but it's kind of a good feelng to feel those pains because I know that i am making progress. make sense? And back to the business, well, I have to pay taxes on it and I have a tax #, so, yeah, I guess you could say it is that. Damned i.r.s.!
Ig, i agree with everyone else about your sponser. I think you're feelings are justifiable. I also think you are suffering from depression. If you switch to something else other than prozac, it'll probably help so much. Not putting it down, but it sounds like it's not really helping you much. Even though so many anti depressents are in the same family, they work different for different people. Also, I've heard that the more depressed you are , the faster you feel better when you start taking the right one. You will be surprised how much better you feel when you do. I hope you do start feeling better soon. sending you prayers!
I feel so guilty...have so much to do this week to get ready for the weekend...and on top of that my neice is getting married Saturday afternoon. So, I'll have to leave work for an hour or so on my first day after moving. But, i could have gotten alot done today..instead, I sat here and ended up not leaving the house after taking Alex to school. I did get my laundry done..but that's about it. i hate it when i feel as if i wasted an entire day! you never get it back! and i know i'm just puttin more stress on myself for the rest of the week. I made baked chicken and rice and steamed some veggies for supper...so, there's one more thing I accomplished. I AM SO LAZY! Sitting here trying to justify the fact that I done a few loads of laundry and cooked supper as being very productive. woohoo! I'll try harder tomorrow. I am promising myself right now that I am getting started early in the morning...outta of the house by 9. Gotta try to find some more clothing racks, a peice of carpet, among other things and then figure out how to get them thre and set up on Friday. i'm making myself dizzy just thinking about it all. better go and try to get some sleep.
Hope everyone has a peaceful night and pleasant dreams....
Oh yeah, Ay, i have a relative that's in her early fifties and just got her driver's license a few years ago. She is a smart, hard working woman..just never learned to drive till then. She relied on her husband, then, her daughter and co-workers for transportation. Everyone finally talked her into getting it and she goes everywhere now. She seems like a much happier person. said it was the most liberating experience in her life! I'm happy for you and know you will do well on the test. I've been driving since I was 15 and still think I'm becoming a hermit..totally relate to that agoraphobic feeling lately too!
Love to all!!!