Originally Posted by
lilac 
The anger seems to move me along easier than him being nice.
I know exactly what you mean.
I've gotten now to the point where I WISH and HOPE he will be mean because it helps me stay away.
And I've been thinking too about my AH's personality...I am thinking about how much I put up with. How I always clung to his "potential", how I always excused his wrongs...maybe after all, he's just a jerk. But then there's those sweet moments that I can remember that I lived for. Always hoping and thinking that he'd snap out of his "funk" and be the man he really was. Asking myself why those moments were enough for me...why I put up with the rest.