I just keep sitting here thinking how much I miss the good times. It seems like we were perfect together when things were good. I keep trying to think of the bad times and trying to get mad, but I can't. All my friends and family have been by my side, not judging and that helps so much. But all I can think of is how maybe time apart will help him. I don't even want to go to court to get the restraining order, or talk to the detective to put out a warrant. I know I have to for me, but at the same time the thought of not being with him tears me apart. And I know I had so much to deal with him when we were together. I'm going to a psychiatrist on the 23rd, but until then all I have is my self-control to keep me from seeing him. And it's really hard because no matter how much I have screamed at him in the past week, or the fact that I went to court, he's still telling me he loves me. He's still calling wanting to see me. Is this what they all do? Is this how they all act?