(((Abby)))
For many years I felt the same way as you 'How could I leave him knowing he was killing himself'? I thought he was MY responsibility. Afterall, isn't that what I had vowed to do -- in sickness and in health, etc?
Took me a long time to realize he was killing himself whether I stayed or whether I left. After a while, I began asking myself "How can I stay and watch him suicide? How I can stay when it's killing ME??"
His choice is to drink....maybe to his death. What's your choice for you?
You can't save him, honey. But you CAN save yourself. Do what you need to do for you.
Sorry you have to be here, but glad you found us!
Peace to you~
GHM